So I haven't done any training whatsoever all week. In fact, the word 'training' can hardly be used when trying to describe the activities in the last month or so since I've hardly been pushing my limits at all.

As a result, I'm feeling really soft and weak. There is no doubt in my mind that I'm going to have to start from scratch once the wedding is over. The annoying thing about not training is this feeling of absolute haphazardness in my life at present. When I had some sort of schedule to stick to, I felt like I was in control. That's the most satisfying thing about it, I feel. Finishing a workout and knowing you completed what you set out to achieve. It felt normal. It felt good.

Now I'm just flailing around madly trying to get a grip on all sorts of nonsense. And while I feel that I'm handling everything alright, my body doesn't feel the same at all. I don't know if I'm making any sort of sense at all. Then of course there's the issue of my wedding dress being too big when I'm training... And I'm so afraid it's suddenly going to be too tight 'coz I've stopped.

PMS does not help. Cramps, hot flashes.. Raar.

Ah well. In all, it was an alright day. No real complaints here... 'cept for the fact that I'm fast becoming a soft ickle pile of mush.

*Wobble*